i asked: Do you believe in life-long relationship, well...i mean those romantic ones.

He : the "belief" itself is not the main point, the point is that whether you try your best to make it AS LONG AS POSSIBLE or not.



He really gave me great inspiration about what to do .Ya, if i have heard this some time earlier.if i can have one more chance, i will start all over again, but now, harm is done already. I cant change this fact anymore.


Actually, i dont believe there will be a man who`ll love me for a life-time. No matter how bad i am ,how ugly i`ve become, how much i`ve changed, he`ll still love me like he does at the beginning.Ya, he may loves me now, so much so deep, but what about tmr? next year? after 10 years? I am afraid of marriage, or any kind of promises, coz i know these will give me hope and then kill me thoroughly with the same thing. I dare not to totally devote myself to any love relationship, i draw-back whenever little changes take place. There seems to be no hope for me, and i dont want to harm others either.Being with me, can be really stressful coz i am over-sensitive and so pessimistic. But what can i do? i keep reminding myself not to make the same mistakes as i did before, but i do it automatically. Just like reflex actions, involuntarily.

Hopeless, am sorry .

Form test is coming , precisely speaking, from 2nd Nov to 5th Nov.A torturous week......
Will have to take the FULL paper for Bio, which means SIX WHOLE FREAKING HOURS~~~!!!
SItting there like an idiot for 6 hours must make me feel great! haha!

Anyway, i am not so pressured anymore......i`ll just try


P.S. : Disneyland tmr? Goosh! so sudden? i dont even have time to be excited?! Tim just asked me and offered a very nice price. *well, he wants someone to accompany his gf while he is playing with arB*

hhehhehe....:) lets see how it goes!